Silent Dodger >
The main news, that I think we should start with, is that I am abandoning the post of Red Alliance CEO. And now, to what is the reason for this.
I initially wanted to tell a long story explaining the what, why, and how, but let's go over the main points. I came to RA, basically, at a time when there was no leadership. That is, when FIREKNIGHT quit EVE, and stopped running gangs, when RAZDOLBAI [no idea who - ed.] wanted to, or didn't want to sell [the alliance? - ed.]… I don't know, but nevertheless, when the alliance was left without a command structure.
The alliance was dear to me, it was already dear to me then. I started playing EVE to lead, well, not lead, but to play for RA. So I became the CEO. Basically, I became the CEO with mactep's [Solar Fleet CEO - ed.] blessing. He said that… if you can remember, at that time we had no allies, there was some shaky relationship with xxDeathxx, and when I came to talk to mactep he said "I don't want to deal with FIREÊNIGHT, how about you become the CEO". I said "ok". You all know and remember what happened after that.
My idea for the alliance was to build an independent, politically powerful, and strong empire. This was reflected in my demands for space, for the number of supers, and pilot skill. We accomplished that goal, in my opinion, by the end of last year [2010 - ed.]. That is personally my opinion.
I wont mention all the stories, all the battles, everything that happened someone might have good connotation someone bad.
I consider that what was reached by the alliance in terms of political and military capabilities was a worthy result. As an end goal for my job, I think that I reached the level that I wanted to reach. To repeat, this is the situation at the end of 2010. What happened starting the following summer will be discussed separately.
During the Northern campaign again NC, a situation arose where i had nothing to do in EVE. I'll explain why. When you become the CEO of an alliance, your ego levels peak. Despite what anyone would say, this happens to everyone. And when you realize that you are the CEO of the alliance, and a situation arises where Psihozz [ White Noize CEO - ed.] starts to do everything. And when you give him the command over all of your alliance members, you begin to understand that there can only be one leader, and that leader is Psihozz, because he is leading and doing the brunt of the work. The wish to play, to lead something, basically disappears.
Were you offended [by Psihozz actions - ed.]
Silent Dodger >
No, I was not. I ask to take my words literarily. I am not going to blame anyone. Nor was I in any way offended. I just lost interest. I had no reason to play anymore. And slowly I started to drift away from the game.
Around that time, my mother had some health problems, and, basically, that was when I joined the ranks of RMT. I sold my first titan. My first Ragnarok which you all can remember.
Two people are already recording, I don't thing...
Silent Dodger >
I know. I don't care, I will tell it how it was, and you can judge after that.
I just want everyone to understand the motivation that I had. After that, closer to summer, I took a prolonged vacation and said that I will return in a few months, but that didn't happen.
I didn't just leave for real life, I left to work. To the regional government of Samara. I managed to stay there for three (3) months, and i think that this vacation, well first of all it coincided with the Northern Campaign. And second of all it coincided with a situation where I took on some financial obligations in real life which significantly affected my further actions and decisions. Basically I took a loan to buy a car. With the expectation that I would have a great wage, everything would be okay, and etc. etc.
When I came to work, i realized that, first of all, to have any say in anything there I would have had to work there for at least 20 years. Second of all, it's a system where, by default, you're assumed to be shit, and all your experience and knowledge is irrelevant – you just have to obey. My character isn't very good at obeying others. So, after three (3) months I quit the job, with my head held high, but my financial obligations remained.
And that was when I luckily, well, "luckily", met some people who were professionally involved with RMT. And they offered to help me. To convert ISK into real money. That was how it began. During the next 3 months I quietly moved ISK into real life money; my own, on my corporation's wallet, some people even donated. Who knew about my situation helped how they can.
Later what happened was that the ISK exchange rate fell, i.e. the lower the exchange rate, the more ISK I needed. Eventually in January I took 60kkk from the alliance wallet. I believe that if i hadn't done that, then RA financial situation right now would have been slightly better.
At the same time, I began to notice that I cannot lead fleets, because I join a fleet and do not know what to do. My pvp skill fell to zero because I basically didn't play since the northern campaign. Hence I couldn't demand anything from pilots.
Everyone can remember my recent login during a CTA against Solar. When I ran several OPS for a week, lost a couple of fleets and disappeared.
I actually got sick, which was the reason for my disappearance. But the fact is that after that I had absolutely no desire to return to EVE. Basically, thats it.
My leaving is linked to… from the bottom of my heart… i still love RA, and I understand that I hurt RA, and can only hurt it more. For these reasons I think that I should remove my roles, while there is still a chance of fixing the situation. I wont say that i had no support, it was a very difficult time for me, but no one knew of it.
I want the new CEO of RA, at least for now, to be Lenton. Until there is a new, real one. I consider him to be adequate. As a person, he is very different from me, he is much more calm, but he is a good leader, and internally the situation in the alliance should be ok in my opinion.
Before you start asking questions, I want to wish you all luck. What will happen to me personally I don't know. I will leave my characters in RA, unless you kick them, and will try to solve my real life problems. With my current situation, I can't help you [the alliance - ed.].
Dodger, don't you think this all smells like betrayal?
Silent Dodger >
Probably you're right, i won't say anything. You're right, its a betrayal, but I can't do anything for the alliance right now. Just because if I login right now and lead a fleet, the situation wont change for the better. I think it will be worst.
Dodger, I know who you are, I know how you led gangs and fleets, but to abandon us, abandon the alliance at the doorstep of war, at the doorstep of death? You led the alliance, no question, respect to you for that, RA and Dodger are one and the same. But right now you're leaving us at the doorstep of war and death. This is what I consider the betrayal, no?